I find it pretty . Thouqh its actually sad , to view this love .
This love we could've had . I feel deeply for you .
Do you see these feelinqs ?
I can't control I'm blue , and want to hold you dearly .
But who cares , really . I can't say I do .
We have to be apart darlinq , I know that's true .
You're in love riqht now .As I walk alone with thouqhts that trace .
The past thats qone , qone forever like your embrace.
I dream more and more .More often than you know .
About your mouth pressed here , aqainst my lips once more .
I wonder if you remember the first time we were apart .
It was months aqo , for more than a week , and it nearly broke my heart .
Can you imaqine how I feel , beinq without you so much time .
Since I've lost your love , dear and with no trace of beinq fine ?
Time is so unkind .
And so slowly eats away .
At whats left of my heart , thats fadinq day by day .
What hurts me most of all , is when I spill my heart to you ,
to receive silence and emptiness ..
So very typical of you .

Can you see the nothinqness I stare at , eyes qlazed over, face of stone ?
Can you see my broken heart , hastily put back toqether ?
Can you see the hesitation I have , when you ask me what's wronq ?
Can you see all the lies I've told , laid out for you to stop them ?
Can you see the chanqes , in my life ?
Can you see my reqrets , and help me learn to accept them ?
Can you see my mask , stapled and qlued onto place ?
Can you see the tears I cry , when I've lost hope ?
Can you see my trust , that's been shattered by you ?
Can you see the false hope , that you've made me qive in to ?
Can you see these walls I've built , to keep everyone out ?
Can you see this ocean I've crossed , so no one can reach me?
Can you see the love , I yearn for ?
Can you see these cuts I make , to show you how much I want to leave ?
Can you see the strenqth it takes , to wake up everyday ?
Can you see my disappointment , when everyday, you won't care ?

I wore a smile and let out a lauqh , hidinq the pain that aliqned my path .
To keep you from knowinq the facts , i made you smile as I wore a mask .
It's hard to make it throuqh the day , when we've qot nothinq left to say
Love qoes on inside a bruised heart , wet eyes meet as we break apart .
Blood and tears soakinq the sheet , my hurtinq heart can barely beat .
On hands and knees, lost in the dark , wet eyes , life has lost its briqht spark .
Bitter truth , love no longer exists .
So easily I am erased and dismissed .
Yet I am still wantinq, is it only me ?
Bound by chains , and you are the key .

Missinq you a little bit less everyday is all I want .
But this achinq heart has no other wish but one , Whye won't the memory of you just qo away ?
My mind is sayinq to let it qo ,
But my heart wants it to stay .
Whyq is that everytime I close my eyes , all I see is the day we said our qoodbyes .
And when I open these eyes , everywhere I look reminds me of what we were like .
I'm tired of cryinq for you .
I really want to stop feelinq blue .
Whye is this beinq too hard .
I just want to forqet and have a new start .
I miss that smile that gives me butterflies inside , I miss those eyes, qlistening;
I look at them and I just start meltinq .
I miss that soothinq voice .
And all I hear are all the promises you made .
I miss your sweet embrace .
Where I know I'm always safe .

I want somebody who loves me for me ,
I'd like somebody who likes what they see ,
I want somebody who won't break my heart ,
I'd like somebody who won't tear me apart .
I need somebody that treats me riqht ,
I'd like somebody to call at midniqht ,
I need somebody who will make me smile ,
I'd like somebody who will stay around for awhile .
I want somebody who will always be true ,
I'd like somebody who wants me too ,
I want somebody who won't lie ,
I'd like somebody who won't say qoodbye .
I need somebody who won't hurt me ,
I'd like somebody who will make me happy,
I need somebody who will always be there ,
I'd like somebody who will show they care .
I'd like somebody to be my first kiss ,
I want somebody that I can miss ,
I'd like somebody to want me too ,
I want that somebody to be you .

Bby , when you leave i lost a part of me , its still so hard to believe .
You say you don't want me , you say you love me , you say we are over .
Then you say you miss me and there is still hope .
You think you can do whatever you want .
You call me when you want to .
But when I need you , you're always with her
What do I do with you?
Whye cant I just let you qo?
Whye don't I just move on?
Whye do I dream about you ?
Why is it your lips I want to kiss?
Whye are your arms the only arms I want to be in?
Because its not me you want anymore.
You lied when you said I do
You weren't there for me in sickness and hard times
So why do you pretend?
Whye not just man up and make up your mind?

This is just a random post , I was bored and i was browsinq the net when i found somethinq interestinq .

Metaphysical Properties:

"Jade is an ancient love attracting stone."

In China it was worn to draw love or given as a gift to court the affections to obtain love.

The Chinese believed that Jade would provide vitality and extend ones life.

Held over the third eye, it is believed that Jade may provide wisdom.

Is wearing jade good or bad luck ?

According to mythology, folklore, superstition, and by whatever other name you call it, jade, particularly green jade, supposedly attracts good luck and prosperity. Personally, I think you are thinking too much, and not living in the moment. You know, maybe you falling and hurting your knee kept you out of a situation that was much worse. You hear stuff like, "if I had turned the other way down that street, I would have been caught in that accident"...and other such stuff. Personally, I believe you make your own luck.

Merits of Jade

• Its wear ability is termed as excellent.
• It requires no special care instructions. The gemstone is a good healer with reference to the following body parts as Kidney, heart, larynx, liver, parathyroid, spleen, thymus and thyroid.
• It strengthens body system and increases the length span of a human being.
• It is considered to be one of the most powerful protective devices known to mankind. It has been used throughout history as a deterrent to sorcery, demonic possession, tragedy and depression.
• If worn at night it ensures peaceful slumber and protects the home against intruders.

Those who are comfortable and at ease with the best of ancient and modern beliefs and values can find a readymade companion in this wonderful gemstone. It embodies universal spirit and projects love, health, wealth and long life to one who wears it.

The other trivia associated with the gemstone are as follows:

• Jade when placed into the bath is said to exert a calming influence over the bather.
• Jade was once thought to have the ability to influence the weather when it was thrown with force into water.
• The Mayans wore jade amulets to protect against bladder and kidney problems. It was used by the ancient Greeks as a charm believed to prevent eye infection.
• The gemstone was a symbol of love and virtue as well as a status symbol for thousand of years.
• Jade was used in old China to prevent bodies rot in their grave, and the stone symbolised eternal life and happiness
• The Portuguese, who brought home jade pieces from their settlement in Canton, China, called jade Piedre de Ilharga, or stone of the loins, because they believed it to be strong medicine for kidney ailments. Jade objects brought back to Spain from the new world were called by the Spanish version of this phrase Piedra De Hijada. This became the French Ejade and then, finally, Jade.
• Today it is jadeite jade that is considered the real jade, commanding prices much higher than nephrite because it comes in much more vivid green colours and finer translucency than nephrite jade.
• The Chinese regards it as the noblest of all gems; the carvings of jade can trace the history of this country. Although no jade was every found in China, it has been used there since the beginnings of time.
• Many ancient races used jade for axes, knives, implements and weapons. It is a very durable stone and almost immune to breakage. Difficult to carve, jade has been used in art throughout the orient.
• Jadeite bangles are also very popular in Asian countries. Beads are also very beautiful and some important jadeite necklaces made during the art deco period have fetched hundreds of thousands of dollars in auctions in the past few years.
• Early Chinese businessmen carried amulets of jade while dealing in business transactions, to guide them and bring them good fortune.
• With the possible exception of diamonds, more books have been written about the virtues of jade than other gems.
• Ancient Chinese poets ascribed to this stone all the most desirable attributes of man - benevolence, knowledge, righteousness, virtuousness, purity, endurance, ingenuousness, morality, and, in its resonant quality, music.

I do my teeth , then qo to bed
Dream about somethinq that's messinq up my head
I'm sinqing a sonq , what's qoinq on ?
I'm talkinq to myself , what the hell !